True story of a brokenhearted: Pretend to be happy at day, break down and cry at night.

Isn’t it true guys and girls? We pretend to be happy when we’re with our friends. We try our best not to be affected with the painful situation that we’re experiencing in real life. We do our best to fight the heartache that we’re feeling when everybody is looking, but at the end of the day, we cover ourselves with a blanket and make our pillows wet as our hurtful tears roll down our gloomy eyes because to the truest sense of the word, we’re trying hard to be strong but we can never deny the fact that it still hurts like hell.

I'd rather be in a long relationship with someone whos willing to be with me no matter how many miles we are apart than to be in a physical relatioship with someone who doesnt even give a shit about me. ♥

Because in the end, what’s the sense? Why did you enter a relationship if you do not want to be together? Sometimes, long distance relationships are better because you will know how your partner is really eager to see you. You know how much your partner is willing to sacrifice things just to be with you. It’s much better than being in a relationship that even if you’re together everyday, you just don’t feel any sincerity from that person.

Being in a relationship isn’t about the pictures you take, or the dates you have together. It’s always about the love you give and the love you felt. So how about you, what would you chose? Would you rather be in a long distance relationship with someone who loves you so much, or would you be in a physical relationship with someone who doesn’t even care?

Think about it. Do not risk your heart for someone who doesn’t deserve you.

IM SO DEPRESSED.

I don’t know what to do or what to type. Don’t know why I’m feeling so down. Why am I carrying a heavy burden in my chest right now. Don’t know why I care too much. Don’t know why I keep silent even though I know I should have shoveled it in right now. I don’t understand why these tears keep on falling even though I fight it, I just can’t. I hate crying, I really do. It’s just that these feelings make it harder and harder for me to focus. I wanna be numb. I don’t wanna feel anything for a day. I just wanna feel nothing. Free me from this emotion. Just for a day ‘cause when I start to feel something, I just feel pain.

You cry because he doesn’t give a shit about you.

Sorry for the late update, I was at the Camp last friday night until sunday at the afternoon, so here's my new post 
You cry because he doesn’t give a shit about you.

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But did it ever cross your mind that there might be someone crying out there because you don’t give a shit about them? There are people you don’t notice because you’re too busy taking care of your own business? Have you? 

Person likes you, you don’t like them back. You like one person, and that person doesn’t like you back. You know, it’s just a matter of time ‘till you find that person who will turn back, look at you and will love you with his own free will.

Sometimes It’s Good To Cry♥

Do you ever get that feeling that you want to cry when you’re all alone? When you think about sad happenings in your life and you just wanna break down for a moment, tell yourself that you need to cry just so you can lighten the burden in your chest and feel better after. We cry because we just can’t handle the things that are going on in our lives, or maybe we find a hard time understanding things. 

There are things that aren’t meant to be understood, but rather to be accepted. There are things that we need to let go, because in the first place, that wasn’t really meant for us. It’s just God’s way of teaching us. Go cry if you can’t handle things no more. Go cry inside your room. Crying for 15 minutes would make you feel better.

I hate this feeling ..:( ♥

It really makes me sad how I always make people around me feel special, and I’m this one person who never receives a special treatment. No matter how much effort I put in for someone, those will always be unappreciated. I just don’t know if I’m the one who has the problem, because I can’t control expressing what I feel. I’ve been through this a lot of times, and somehow I managed to turn it off. Turn this emotions off, and I became one of those people who don’t care about anything. I kinda liked it ‘cause I don’t feel pain anymore. Then someone came in my life and turned my emotions on again. Now I’m as vulnerable as ever. I hate this feeling.

Physically Felt Dreams ♥

 Last night I was heavily dreaming about someone. I dreamed that we were at my Aunt’s house and I saw him. I ran towards him and I hugged him so tight that I can really feel his body resting against mine. He was hugging me back too, which made my dream extra special. I really thought it was true ‘cause I really felt it. I felt the warmth and the tightness of his hug. Only to realize that what kept me warm was my comforter and the kind of body I was dreaming was my huge pillow. I woke up hugging my pillow so tight. Feeling the cold temperature in my room, I forced myself to sleep again hoping to continue that sweet dream, but no. Sadly it didn’t. Sometimes, when I am having those physically felt “sweet” dreams, how I wish I could stay in my dreamland longer…❤